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28/9/15

the Greek philosopher Socrates encouraged us to examine ourselves 'the unexamined life is not worth living.'

in theory  I would agree but after spending a month trying trying to start this project and thinking about myself and awful lot I've come to the conclusion that ignorance is  Bliss

the philosopher Rene Discartes  coined the phrase 'I think therefore I am.' 

as a member of the Roman Catholic Church I disagree with this but as someone who is transgender I can also agree.

From a religious point of view  the phrase should be, 'I have a soul, therefore I think.'

As a transgender person, I completely understand distancing the mind and body so I propose that the self exists in three parts: mind, body, soul. Each of these is completely independent of the others and yet reliant on the others as a whole.

I completely disagree with Sigmund Freud's statement that dreams are how we handle all unconscious desires. Dreams are merely how we interpret stimulus. I dreamed once that my 10 month old baby brother was 14 years old and wanted to go through gender-realignment surgery. Do I unconsciously want this?  No. I'd watched a documentary the previous evening  episode one of Reggie Yates, Extreme UK - Gay and Under Attack. He spoke about his little brother who is around 14 years old. He interviewed a woman who was on the waiting list for gender-realignment surgery. Watching this affected the subject of my dreams.

Jacques Lacan talked about when children lern to recognis them sellf 'The Mirror stage' its ot ths stage of develapment that we reconis wot we see in a Mirror as a reflecshon of awer selfes and not another 

I wched a video on theis or a simula subgect sum years back, In wich thay put a spot of pante on the faces of children and animals and shode them ther reflecshon.
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About me

My name is Andrew Lovatt

my life  in any a nut shell

I am not good at telling stories about myself chronologically I'm going to skip around your gowing to haf to put up with it

I,m the oldest of all my mums children and from what I know I am the youngest of my biological fathers children some kind of a middle child

I was born a busted mum and dad didn't want  to just get married because of they have a child but about year after  I was born got married.

I don't quite remember my childhood it was just you generic nuclear family. 

Around the time that I started primary school my parents got divorced, I attended a Roman Catholic primary school and as such all of my  behavioural issues were  assumed to be the fault of the divorce,  when the school finally got around to testing me to  see if I only learning difficulties I was shown to have severe dyslexia and my behavioural issues stemmed from frustration at not being able to complete work.

life and on pretty normally after my dyslexia diagnosis except now have support and I may progress I graduated to a Roman Catholic high school where I got more support after the five years of attending that school I was officially a independent reader,  however my spelling is not change to this day I still spell worse than your average 10-year-old,

going back to the subject of my father  after the divorce the next three years I had a strained relationship with my father basically he wasn't a nice person glossing over most of what happened with him at the age of seven or eight I decided I'm no longer wished to see him any more as a result of how he dealt with my being dyslexic I've since seen my grandparents and aunts and uncles once  since deciding not to have any contact with him I haven't seen my older brother Daniel since before I stop seeing my father  and that's what I regret the most, it's been over 13 years since I last saw Daniel

In high school I began to suffer with depression I struggle to make friends and have always been a bit strange I was picked on by the neighbourhood children when I was much younger an developed a bit of a fear of going outside  I've recently started to get over this fear but as I say in high school as a result of bullying as well as self isolation I became depressed to the point where I attended suicide on separate occasions I sort help  from one of the members of staff at school I was referred  me to cames where they helped me deal with my depression until I turned 18 and was no longer eligible to be seen by them

at some point cames diagnosed me  with Asperger's book for some reason the diagnosis was never told to me I was tested on several more occasions and all evidence supported the original diagnosis yet I was still not told until  about three years after the original diagnosis

about six years ago my mum met Michael my stepdad  they married within the year and have two sons my younger brothers Nathan and Lucas I really look up to Michael is really nice person 

My Gender 

while my biological sex is male I am genderfluid if you don't know what this is what's the video to the right  
I believe that since a young age I've never fully identified as male but society teaches children that to be anything other than the gender of your sex is wrong so I kept these feelings buried inside for a long time to recently that I've accepted myself and decided not to accept the societal norms

My sexuality
I gynesexual  which is a gender neutral way of saying that I am attracted to women

My interests and hobbies.

I'm interested in many things, I love science fiction, fantasy films, zombie movies and  superhero films 

I read a lot of manga, watch a lot of anime,  I play a lot of visual novels and dating Sims

I'm a little bit of an otaku  or maybe even a weeaboo 

I'm also a massive fan of Batman

I,m in love with Harlequin

I love playing games I prefer playing on the computer but I have an Xbox only 360 and Wii I'm a big fan of the Nintendo 3DS and in particular Nintendo Pokémon games as a child I never played them  we can afford them bought I've been able to buy old copies of many of the old games 

I was playing Dungeons & Dragons watching other people online play Dungeons & Dragons 

I'm interested in Lolita fashions
in particular Gothic Lolita